Another day staying at home with the four walls and ceiling that were calling out “Home Sweet Home”. The four walls which some days seem to close in on her as if to say, “You will never get out of my enclosed force field called walls.” She really couldn’t say that she could actually see the walls moving inch by inch, it was more of a feeling of the walls enclosing on her and the air getting stuck out of the room slowly. On other days, when the rain or snow was falling, she had to admit how beautiful the snow would look when no one had the chance to walk through it. When the bad days hit, she enjoyed sitting inside the warm house and not having to go outside to go to a job that she wasn’t sure was going to be there when this virus ever went away for good.
Wearing a mask was not one of her favorite things to do, but she also didn’t want to get sick enough to go into the hospital. The nurse at the hospital that clean inside her nose and half of her mind, when she had the test, she said the first thing to watch out for was cough, chills, and fever. Susie had always wondered how her outside skin could feel hot with a fever, but the inside was cold as living at the North Pole. Inside was shaking like a leaf and the outside was hot as a baked potato.
Putting on gloves made her hands itch when she wore them and wiping cans that her food came in just seemed silly to her, but she did it all just to stay out of the hospital. A place that had beds were everywhere, making the building seem to busting at the seams, the beds had taken over every inch of the building and the doctors seemed to be looking for more space for beds that just weren’t there. She always had wanted to be a nurse helping the sick and injured, but now she was glad that she hadn’t as she watched her next door neighbor dragging her tired old body into her house after a twelve hours day. Now, being a nurse would seem to be hard work and something she didn’t want to do.
Staying in your home is more confining than being inside a hospital all day long with patients that were in many states of sickness and in many states of hurting. Being in the hospital at least you have someone to talk to and to care for, something to keep yourself busy, so the many hours don’t seem, so long that you are inside those walls. Being alone in your own apartment is fine if you are twenty and just starting out. If you are as old as she is, at the age of twenty six, she wanted to scream loud enough for anyone could hear her. She had been at her job for at least two years and now, she wasn’t sure her job of being Marcia’s assistant was going to be there whenever she was able to return to work. Marcia could at least work at her job and earn money, but how could she run personal errands for her, how could she answer the phone, and how could she earn money to pay her bills?
Life had seemed to change for poor old Susie as she stood thinking about her life in the past and she had realized that just last year, she had been a party girl. She had been invited out to parties which would mean she would drink up to forget the bills she had and the troubles that were plaguing her. The monthly bills she could understand, but where did all that credit card bills come from. As she searched her mind to think of all the times she had said “Charge it” instead of using her debit card, she would be like the cartoon that she had watched when she was younger. “The Flintstones” when Betty and Wilma would yell “Charge it” with their hands high in the sky and would go off to an imaginable store to buy things they needed or that they thought they wanted. Now days, one thing charged meant you would end up paying double for the things that the modern girls say “Charge it” too.
Today, she is stuck in her home watching the birds fly freely through the air with no mask or gloves on to protect their little bodies from some virus that is in the air. This virus that seemed to be able to kill people with just by someone else’s coughed or sneezing around them. People had been coughing or sneezing on and around her for years, so why now does it seem to be so dangerous that it been done. People hadn’t been thinking about the other person welfare when they had coughed out or sneezed out before ,so why now does someone get yelled at when coughing or sneezing around people. Yelled at, slugged, and almost to the point of being beating up so badly that the person almost dies from it. Simply put, the person could be a carrier for this deadly virus that seems to be flying freely on the air stream that goes around us and make us feel deadly sick.
She wanted to make a sign to put on her front yard which would read, “Why not think of others and stay home? Why don’t people think of others when they are attending large gatherings, stay away from people and wear masks, so other people don’t get sick? , So other people don’t die because they wanted to see their family or friends.” She knew all about personal rights and having a parent’s demand for them to come home for Thanksgiving, a friend that was dying in the hospital, or just wanting to go for a walk with a friend to catch up with the weekly gossip. She knew and understand how staying in their homes get stifling and you want to get out, you feel stir crazy. She knew all about that and understood it was hard to deal with.
What do you say to someone that is having their wife or husband died and they went to a party that you attended feeling sick? Does a simple “I am sorry” work in this case that they are simply going to smile and say “I forgive you.”? She wanted to scream as she watched people walk by her house in front with another person close enough to cough on them. It was their personal right to be outside and make someone sick enough to die. Susie knew that she could see both sides of the argument and if it came down to it, she would like to be the one outside enjoying themselves too. Her parents were very religious and taught her the “Golden Rule” which states “to do to others what you would like them to do to you.” Would she want to get sick just because someone went to a party sick or would she want to die just because someone else went to a party sick?